Recent Changes

Changes... one of the things that is truly constant according to some old songs or sayings.

But come to think of it. It's true. Only a dead person will not be able to change. You might say that dead person's exterior might still change (rot) but would he care? He wouldn't feel anything even a slight pain or happiness. I am alive that's why I change...

This past few weeks, I am constantly bugged again by some thoughts about my present and future situations mainly about life (family, work, spiritual life). It seems that I think about these because I am living in this environment. I meet my family in the mornings and when I get back from work. In the middle, I travel and go to work. During Saturdays and Sundays, I go to Church. Sometimes, I am afraid that it has just become a routine for me.

But I feel that God is testing me becuase in the midst of my comfort zones, changes are about to happen (or already happened). I know that He doesn't want me to feel so relaxed that I only think of myself. Instead, He wants me to be an effective Christian wherever, whenever.

Family. It seems we are bonding more and more these past few weeks. I missed these special times because I feel that I have shied away so much from the pressure and the stress that came from family. I feel God saying to me that it is time to open up once again and try to listen.

Work. Three bosses, three roles in a year. That must have been some major adjustments. I feel God is saying to me humble yourself because I am the source of all your successes. I feel that He wants me to do my best and to glorify Him as my ultimate boss! Also, Saturday mornings will be gone! I have to work for my uncle as a part time auditor. I hope I can shine there too.

Church. Adjustment in the time of choir and to a new praise team next year sure is not easy, but it is for the best of the Church. Here, I believe He is testing my commitment and devotion to serving and giving Him all honor and glory that is due Him. It is indeed true that the spotlight can blind you in so many ways. I hope and pray that He will still use me as an instrument for proclaiming His mission.

Life. Sometimes I'd go staring at the wall, thinking about my life, my future. I think about studying again or life 5 years from now. I feel that God wants me to also look at my past - how He has saved me from my sins, how he led me to my job, kept my family safe, all the successes and failures in my life - and continue to trust in Him for my future decisions in life.

Changes can be hard for a person especially if one comes after the other. But I also believe that changes can be better when we have someone to lean on to, talk to, or share it to. It'd be good if we had a special friend to share these things... a Friend would be better.